Blessed be this first RAIN of the season…my soul is soaking it up at heartily as the thirsty soil under my feet. After the last few weeks living in the fire, I feel like even my computer needs a good soakdown.
Since September 11th 2010, i have been witness to the crumbling of faulty foundations, the destructive whirlwind of angry egoes, blatant dishonesty and blame, and the subversive and underminingly illusory power of money.
I have to admit that even in my darkest moments i never imagined how intense this planetary transformation could be, nor what it would feel like to fully give in to the call to surrender.
It was little more than a month prior to that when I fully gave my life to spirit. Like many, I thought I was living for spirit before then, but was struggling to understand why certain things in my life, relationship, business, finances, were still not flowing. When I finally sat and took the time to look within, it was no surprise to see all the ways in which I had failed to truly trust, to truly give myself over, to follow my inner guidance, and all the ways I was continuing to hold myself back from that threshhold. So, in a brave and boldly mythical moment, I crossed that invisible threshhold and delivered my spirit into the hands of the divine plan that was awaiting me.
What I knew then, and continue to know now, is that in the end, it all works out perfectly.
But what is hard for my ego and my mind and my inner child to accept is all the things I need to let go of, all the things that need to be destroyed, all the overgrowth that needs to be trimmed back in order to make space for that new growth. And even harder to swallow is that it’s not in my control, that I can’t protect everyone from feeling what they need to feel for their own evolution, and that I can’t just fix it and make it all better.
I have reluctantly read the writing on the wall.
For those of you I haven’t seen in awhile, you may not know that Urban Remedy Community Acupuncture in Venice is soon closing it’s doors. As part of this process of letting go of things that no longer serve me, I have had to take a hard look at my partnerships and as much as I have loved and grown and served on Abbot Kinney I came to the realization that this relationship was keeping me from taking the next steps in my life and business. Even now I struggle to tell you because I want so much to be able to somehow make it all work out, look perfect, make sure you still like me…
But the reality is, it’s time to move on. I don’t exactly know what’s next, and until I cut this tie, I am not free to see… I know that the next step is just beyond this veil, and so with a deeper trust I write this now, and maybe it’s you out there who can see it fore me…this is a collective journey, after all, my years of holding space for the Community AVATAR have taught me that if nothing else. I do know that the legacy lives on, that we have touched thousands of lives, that some of the practitioners may continue to treat there within the new business that is taking over the space, and that I have given it my best and my all and my love for the time that I was there. And that I will always hold sweet Venice and the beatiful Urban Remedy Community in my heart. Oh, and that I, myself, am not GOING anywhere, really. My service continues, so please let me know how I can support you on this journey…keep your eyes peeled for the Ojai Medicine Wheel…
Incidentally, Ojai is delicious this time of year, and for those of you who have yet to come experience the paradise of this sacred valley, maybe you are the reason I am writing this now…
All this just to say that Fall is here, and to perhaps give you some hope, some perspective, some insight as to this turning of seasons, this acceleration of evolution, this fire of transformation…and also to invite those of you who are endowed in the masculine way to join us for the next fire…
This Saturday Evening Oct. 9th from 7pm to midnight, I will be hosting the monthly New Moon Men’s Council Fire: Reignite your Inner Flame. These fires are nothing less than miraculous, providing the perfect support for the inner journey and the modern lives we must balance as we walk this razor’s edge. I have been guided to begin an inquiry in the spirit of the great philosopher Diogenes who spent his life searching for an Honest Man…so we will be stepping into the sharp and uncompromising TRUTH this month, and holding each other to the gifts and consequences that our lack of honesty has created, and paving the way to becoming the voices of the Divine Masculine for our generation and beyond.
And I will be sharing what has kept me calm and centered in the Eye of the Storm during all this transition and disintegration.
And all you sisters out there who have been feeling left out of these men’s things, please know that I have not forgotten you, you are in my heart and in my master plan and soon we will be sitting around the fire together, too.
In response to repeated requests and messages from many that have been stopped from joining us for financial reasons, I have decided to offer the next few month’s fires at the reduced rate of $30. Normally this is a $100 event, so i cannot offer any further discounts, but have limited availablity for a work trade for anyone who still feels this price to be an obstacle. Please know that the value of this council will far outweigh and repay any financial investment you make. Overnight camping and accomodations are available on request.
And I repeat, in the end, my friends, no matter how hard we resist and fight, it all turns out perfectly. That, I can 100% moneyback guarantee.
I love you, and thank you for holding space for me and this and for your beautiful service in the world.
Shining that light right back at you,
eric
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Eric Baumgartner L.Ac.
Urban Remedy Community Acupuncture
310.916.2232
eric@urbanremedy.org
